I'm tired.
I'm mad with you.
I'm upset.
I'm very angry.
I'm pissed off.
I'm sad.
Fuck but really, it takes two hands to clap. What exactly were you doing this few months? What exactly was that relationship? No Im not expecting much but shit you don't have to do that.
Now Im longing to see you sitting at the escalator, waiting for me.
Now Im longing to see your text messages.
Now Im longing to see you at night to take your stuff from me.
Now Im longing to hear you calling me Bodoh and telling to shut up whenever I start singing.
Now Im longing to know that I'm gonna see you after work, before work and so on.
Now Im longing to receive calls from you and hear you say, ' eh I downstairs alr eh! '
What was I thinking when I called you FIRST upon getting my results.
WHO ARE YOU TO ME?
And I hate myself for ignoring you THAT FEW MINS when you appeared at my work place but I continued doing my work when my colleagues actually shook my body, tapped my shoulders and all to tell me you're outside. I think that ignorance is the caused of all these. For that, thanks to me.
But I'm not blaming myself fully.
Knowing there's no other way to contact you other than MSN, if you could check your phone (though it's spoilt), you would see millions of miss calls from me.
Honestly, I miss the way how you treated me, even as a friend.
I think I think too much about the fact that I scored good for Ns and family doesn't seem to show any kind gestures to me like other friends received. I myself know that Im upset about that till I had a nightmare depicting my own sister shouting, screaming, scolding, cursing me for being less educated than her. My mom was there and she was shocked. I tried to fight back, like I always do. But I choked up as I was tooooo friggin hurt till no voice came out and all I did was crying. In that dream, I was crying silently, no voice. Took a deep breath and wanted to cry out loud ( still in the dream! ), I actually wailed in reality. Which means, I woke up and was wailing and crying like I was beaten up. I realised I was crying, but I didn't stop. The dream was so real and I can imagine it happening.
SERIOUSLY, NOT HANDLING LIFE WELL.
I need a break.
AND YOU ! SHE DESERVES ALL OF IT. stop making me feel guilty.
..dont talk to me. goodnight.
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Monday, December 28, 2009
I really want the Hip Hop Gangsta of Big bang to come back. listen to the songs I've been uploading and changing one after another. See what I mean? I miss their old albums, ALOT.
AH, happily Bigbang-ing on youtube and received a call from Azhar. Need to cover his shift at 7pm. Aiya, 4 hours shift again! no break leh!
And you, geuman mannaja. Bianhe.
I see no point alr.
bye.
AH, happily Bigbang-ing on youtube and received a call from Azhar. Need to cover his shift at 7pm. Aiya, 4 hours shift again! no break leh!
And you, geuman mannaja. Bianhe.
I see no point alr.
bye.
Saturday, December 26, 2009
Sometimes I realised that my love for you are stronger than my love for Chocolate Croissant.
Sometimes I realised that it was nothing as we need two hands to clap. From what I see, there's only one.
Now I'm feeling guilty for totally ignoring you just now. I don't know whats up with me. But just so you know, I was relieved to know that you asked my colleagues to hug and kiss me when they see me. Im so sorry but I love you da gor jis mar. lols what the hell...
Work was really WORK just now. Okay, not making any sense here. All I can say is that today was one of the toughest working days. AH, gotta have to endure and enjoy cause there wont be anymore of kak noor, kak dyla, Jamin, Amer, Rosemary, Aunty baker, Filiana, Izzaty, Amira, Azhar, baha, danial,Syafiq, faris, ME -.-, er.. shawn, Hanifa, Ganesh, puspah and the list goes on...
Aiyo.
Anyhoos, LG CRYSTAL IM COMING, PLEASE WAIT HOR. STAY AFFORADABLE!
please don't go ne gyo te stay.. k lol again.
Okay, have to wake up by 6plus to take passport -.- then off to work at 3.
Adoi, penat!
Sometimes I realised that it was nothing as we need two hands to clap. From what I see, there's only one.
Now I'm feeling guilty for totally ignoring you just now. I don't know whats up with me. But just so you know, I was relieved to know that you asked my colleagues to hug and kiss me when they see me. Im so sorry but I love you da gor jis mar. lols what the hell...
Work was really WORK just now. Okay, not making any sense here. All I can say is that today was one of the toughest working days. AH, gotta have to endure and enjoy cause there wont be anymore of kak noor, kak dyla, Jamin, Amer, Rosemary, Aunty baker, Filiana, Izzaty, Amira, Azhar, baha, danial,Syafiq, faris, ME -.-, er.. shawn, Hanifa, Ganesh, puspah and the list goes on...
Aiyo.
Anyhoos, LG CRYSTAL IM COMING, PLEASE WAIT HOR. STAY AFFORADABLE!
please don't go ne gyo te stay.. k lol again.
Okay, have to wake up by 6plus to take passport -.- then off to work at 3.
Adoi, penat!
Friday, December 25, 2009
Dreaming of getting some present for scoring well for N level was a huge mistake. What I get from that wasn't any kind of benefits but instead it was all a loss. Planning of getting a present for myself (lg crystal) covered my mind the whole time while I was at home, at work, any where any time but it was all gone just in split seconds. What is this? Other's enjoyed being pampered and being spent with luxurious stuff while Im on the far end, receiving all these?
That phone call I ignored for the first time was the most important phonecall which was bringing the most important and heaviest news. And I ignored it and continue doing stock checking at work. The next phonecall was the phonecall I was hoping that I will never receive.
She was someone who I thought would be one of the strongest grandmother living on Earth. She was someone who kept on calling each and every of her children's house almost every hour, without fail just to check whether us, her grandchildren have eaten, got home safely from here and there and so on. We tend to get irritated at times and I regret for feeling so.
But what's the point of regretting ?
It didn't strike me until I saw her body. As cold as she was in Claim 2, I couldn't imagine how cold it would be in the 'icebox' of the Mortuary that she was kept in for one night. My aunty who was badly affected fainted and was shivering the whole time and was saying, ' mak sejuk ' (granny's cold). Seeing everyone tearing up, especially grandad hurts the hell out of me. As a BIG family of almost 30 grandchildren and about 10 children never ever so grandad cried before, until that day.
Abah, we all janji untuk jage abah. bersabar jer bah..
The traditional process before the burial is pretty personal. All I can say is it was my first experience of loosing someone who's close to heart and it was something I dont ever want to face again.
Slept at Granny's for two days. Now back home after the compassionate leave and will be working 12hours shift tmr, at 11.
Mak, yaya akan bace kan Alfatiha dan ingatkan mak. Terime kasih mak untuk segale gale nyer. I'll always be your Ikan parang who has gone chubbier now mak.
It hurts even more when my niece whispered at late granny's ears while sobbing,
'kenape dier buat nek yang ain mcm gini?'
That phone call I ignored for the first time was the most important phonecall which was bringing the most important and heaviest news. And I ignored it and continue doing stock checking at work. The next phonecall was the phonecall I was hoping that I will never receive.
She was someone who I thought would be one of the strongest grandmother living on Earth. She was someone who kept on calling each and every of her children's house almost every hour, without fail just to check whether us, her grandchildren have eaten, got home safely from here and there and so on. We tend to get irritated at times and I regret for feeling so.
But what's the point of regretting ?
It didn't strike me until I saw her body. As cold as she was in Claim 2, I couldn't imagine how cold it would be in the 'icebox' of the Mortuary that she was kept in for one night. My aunty who was badly affected fainted and was shivering the whole time and was saying, ' mak sejuk ' (granny's cold). Seeing everyone tearing up, especially grandad hurts the hell out of me. As a BIG family of almost 30 grandchildren and about 10 children never ever so grandad cried before, until that day.
Abah, we all janji untuk jage abah. bersabar jer bah..
The traditional process before the burial is pretty personal. All I can say is it was my first experience of loosing someone who's close to heart and it was something I dont ever want to face again.
Slept at Granny's for two days. Now back home after the compassionate leave and will be working 12hours shift tmr, at 11.
Mak, yaya akan bace kan Alfatiha dan ingatkan mak. Terime kasih mak untuk segale gale nyer. I'll always be your Ikan parang who has gone chubbier now mak.
It hurts even more when my niece whispered at late granny's ears while sobbing,
'kenape dier buat nek yang ain mcm gini?'
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Today started off hard. Woke up and got ready for work. Head to Causeway's Deli and collected some HEAVY items for our outlet. From peoples view, it seems light as the bag of straws were facing them while the hard, chilled and compressed items were inside. So they might e wondering, ' why is she so lembek? it's just straws la please -.- ' Lek sua eh. lol
Today's crowd were pretty fucked up. Very demanding group of family and people just don't understand the sign on the menu stand which says, ' PLEASE WAIT TO BE SEATED '. The next thing I know, I saw 2 groups of customers seated and showing hand signs ' where's the menu?? '
Tell me, how can I NOT be fucked up ? 4 hours shift been a piece of shit to me.
And guess what, tmr's a 4shift work AGAIN.
Chillax with the managers after work at the back before heading back to woodlands with kak dyla and A.Izzaty. Met bestfriend outside school and she said I looked like someone who was fired. -.- with that appearance, I agree. heh.
Went home awhile and out again at about 6pm to look for LG CRYSTAL BABY. Yeah, mom wouldn't be happy about it but I'll do anything it takes to get something related to Big bang (:
Hoping for my pay to be reasonable and get it imeediately after schoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooollllllllllllllll on 7th (:
I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT CRYSTAL AND BIG BANG.
yes, fanatic. Me being a fanatic doesn't bother your life a single bit. SO, yeah.
So second half of work was okay. Was suppose to come back to help Azhar as Shawn will be going home early and kak noor has to help Hanifa with cashier. But our CEO of WW (inside joke) didnt turn up so I was practically covering his shift. takper takper.. Closing was fun actually.
Don wasn't around nor did we meet at night since he was busy ton-ing -.-'
heran ah ngan budak budak nowadays. And I'm no more bodoh. Now, he calls me idiot, sometimes bodoh and most often, the always use, the nonstop sentence,
You go eat shit la.
OUCH SIA.
Went online and Silas was alr picking on me the minute he started the conversation. Stupid guy who needs running machine at home since he needs to do runs at home. hahahah, another inside joke.
iRAHH IS VIP ♥ : SEUNGRI BABY says:
how's results?
silasss says:
go ite la.
hahhaha.
iRAHH IS VIP ♥ : SEUNGRI BABY says:
okok talk tmr!
go top up
go sleep
silasss says:
irah go ite laa..
hahaha.
no shame, pulling me to go matrep course with him. lols.
& NADIAH ABDUL RAZAK CAME ONLINE AFT SO LONG! AHH !
Today's crowd were pretty fucked up. Very demanding group of family and people just don't understand the sign on the menu stand which says, ' PLEASE WAIT TO BE SEATED '. The next thing I know, I saw 2 groups of customers seated and showing hand signs ' where's the menu?? '
Tell me, how can I NOT be fucked up ? 4 hours shift been a piece of shit to me.
And guess what, tmr's a 4shift work AGAIN.
Chillax with the managers after work at the back before heading back to woodlands with kak dyla and A.Izzaty. Met bestfriend outside school and she said I looked like someone who was fired. -.- with that appearance, I agree. heh.
Went home awhile and out again at about 6pm to look for LG CRYSTAL BABY. Yeah, mom wouldn't be happy about it but I'll do anything it takes to get something related to Big bang (:
Hoping for my pay to be reasonable and get it imeediately after schoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooollllllllllllllll on 7th (:
I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT CRYSTAL AND BIG BANG.
yes, fanatic. Me being a fanatic doesn't bother your life a single bit. SO, yeah.
So second half of work was okay. Was suppose to come back to help Azhar as Shawn will be going home early and kak noor has to help Hanifa with cashier. But our CEO of WW (inside joke) didnt turn up so I was practically covering his shift. takper takper.. Closing was fun actually.
Don wasn't around nor did we meet at night since he was busy ton-ing -.-'
heran ah ngan budak budak nowadays. And I'm no more bodoh. Now, he calls me idiot, sometimes bodoh and most often, the always use, the nonstop sentence,
You go eat shit la.
OUCH SIA.
Went online and Silas was alr picking on me the minute he started the conversation. Stupid guy who needs running machine at home since he needs to do runs at home. hahahah, another inside joke.
iRAHH IS VIP ♥ : SEUNGRI BABY says:
how's results?
silasss says:
go ite la.
hahhaha.
iRAHH IS VIP ♥ : SEUNGRI BABY says:
okok talk tmr!
go top up
go sleep
silasss says:
irah go ite laa..
hahaha.
no shame, pulling me to go matrep course with him. lols.
& NADIAH ABDUL RAZAK CAME ONLINE AFT SO LONG! AHH !
Sunday, December 20, 2009
A crumpler or jansport for school ?
A crumpler or jansport or a new phone similar to Cyon Crystal using next pay?
Continue working after Np's Deli close down or concentrate on school?
Continue my craze for Big bang or simmer down in order to have space in my brain for education?
I'm going nuts over these trivial matters. Next pay faster come, I need to buy awesome stuff to start of 2010 happily!
after much thinking, if the price is within the range of 300 to 400 plus, I will spend my next pay on that baby on top. Hoping to save up moree now, and in time to come in order to pay the subscription fees.
Just have a look how awesome the functions are. serious shit.
Seungri and Tae Yang CF on this phone. Cute and adorable.
MUST WATCH
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Friends? Are you there ?
baby, did you pray or did something for me? hahahaha, what a wish man!
Despite the fact that I will have to greet people like Caroline, Darian, Huai Qing, and the rest as Sirs and Mams in band next year, I'm delightful enough that I'm promoted to Sec Five with my own hard work. Yes, no teacher closing one eye and pulling up my grades. It's purely me and my hard work. Indeed it's all paid off.
I wanna say that I think my grades aren't satisfying enough, but Alhamdullilah it's better than nothing. So much better, I can say. I didn't expect myself scoring 14 for my N Level. Mama, I hope 14 is a good evidence that I really did put in the effort although I've been heck care -ing about revisions.
ALL YOU DO IS ART ART ART !, you said.
There, I've gotten a 2 for art, which helps alooooooooooooooooooooooot.
On a happier note, I'll get to see Mr Aaron Cheng for a year more ! And Mr Nicholas, that is if he's a permanent teacher eh? Hot sia he in the year book. go see go see!
My mind ain't thinking properly now, no focus on blogging.
I'll end it here.
Lunch date tmr?
Despite the fact that I will have to greet people like Caroline, Darian, Huai Qing, and the rest as Sirs and Mams in band next year, I'm delightful enough that I'm promoted to Sec Five with my own hard work. Yes, no teacher closing one eye and pulling up my grades. It's purely me and my hard work. Indeed it's all paid off.
I wanna say that I think my grades aren't satisfying enough, but Alhamdullilah it's better than nothing. So much better, I can say. I didn't expect myself scoring 14 for my N Level. Mama, I hope 14 is a good evidence that I really did put in the effort although I've been heck care -ing about revisions.
ALL YOU DO IS ART ART ART !, you said.
There, I've gotten a 2 for art, which helps alooooooooooooooooooooooot.
On a happier note, I'll get to see Mr Aaron Cheng for a year more ! And Mr Nicholas, that is if he's a permanent teacher eh? Hot sia he in the year book. go see go see!
My mind ain't thinking properly now, no focus on blogging.
I'll end it here.
Lunch date tmr?
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
BIG BANG
Love it how Big bang have three show dates like their past concerts. Baby, don't faint again please. & another problem, I will seriously really seriously get freakingly envious and jealous of those VIPs that will be screamingggg and shouting the slogan :( UGH.
BIG BANG HWAITING ! must be working their asses off and seungri's dark rings must be appearing moree.
**********************************
OK IM NOT AT EASE.
No more promoting strong baby.. baby needs more solos, gd !
I don't get why netizen keep on commenting and commenting when they don't go and fetch the facts first. I'm talking about our Tae yang Wedding Dress live performance. We fans know that Korean artist are mostly doing oth singing and dancing. How on earth can one do both flawlessly?
Of course they will have to play or make a new recording to support them. I mean, those part where they will focus on the moves and the cd will play the chorus.
Netizens said things like dont get me fans but don't you think he was backed up way too much? Eh babi, almost all artist does that.
We'll see if you could do the song with the awesome dance moves flawlessly, shit.
***
<Br>Big bang's having A big solo concert, BIG SHOW.
Oh, please bring me to Olympic Park Stadium
● Dates:
- Fri January 29th, 2010 8:00 p.m.
- Sat, January 30th, 2010 6:00 p.m.
- Sun, January 31st, 2010 5:00 p.m.
● Venue: Olympic Park Stadium
● Price: ₩ 77,000 a seat
● Organizer: YG Entertainment
● Sponsor: G-Market
Of course they will have to play or make a new recording to support them. I mean, those part where they will focus on the moves and the cd will play the chorus.
Netizens said things like dont get me fans but don't you think he was backed up way too much? Eh babi, almost all artist does that.
We'll see if you could do the song with the awesome dance moves flawlessly, shit.
***
<Br>Big bang's having A big solo concert, BIG SHOW.
Oh, please bring me to Olympic Park Stadium
● Dates:
- Fri January 29th, 2010 8:00 p.m.
- Sat, January 30th, 2010 6:00 p.m.
- Sun, January 31st, 2010 5:00 p.m.
● Venue: Olympic Park Stadium
● Price: ₩ 77,000 a seat
● Organizer: YG Entertainment
● Sponsor: G-Market
Love it how Big bang have three show dates like their past concerts. Baby, don't faint again please. & another problem, I will seriously really seriously get freakingly envious and jealous of those VIPs that will be screamingggg and shouting the slogan :( UGH.
BIG BANG HWAITING ! must be working their asses off and seungri's dark rings must be appearing moree.
**********************************
OK IM NOT AT EASE.
No more promoting strong baby.. baby needs more solos, gd !
I don't know if I can stay faithful.
I don't know if I can swallow in all those painful remarks.
I don't know if I can accept that you guys are not just mine.
I don't know if I can accept that she's better than me.
I don't know if I can accept the fact that you're not the better one among the rest.
I don't know how to take all that in.
How can I not know? Cause to me, I feel that I know you well enough. Even better than any ex boyfriends I had in the past. How can I not know? You're the BEST of the best that I know.
Seriously, you're the best.
I'm just having so much doubts about everything. EVERYTHING.
Big bang, seungri, results, work, myself, him, seungri, big bang, seungri big bang, seungri.
my heart is aching from time to time and I just cant find the reason why it's happening.
What the fuck is wrong with me?
I need to sleep. soon, it'll be 3 am and I need to be up by 7am.
Cheers.
I don't know if I can swallow in all those painful remarks.
I don't know if I can accept that you guys are not just mine.
I don't know if I can accept that she's better than me.
I don't know if I can accept the fact that you're not the better one among the rest.
I don't know how to take all that in.
How can I not know? Cause to me, I feel that I know you well enough. Even better than any ex boyfriends I had in the past. How can I not know? You're the BEST of the best that I know.
Seriously, you're the best.
I'm just having so much doubts about everything. EVERYTHING.
Big bang, seungri, results, work, myself, him, seungri, big bang, seungri big bang, seungri.
my heart is aching from time to time and I just cant find the reason why it's happening.
What the fuck is wrong with me?
I need to sleep. soon, it'll be 3 am and I need to be up by 7am.
Cheers.
Sunday, December 13, 2009
I was so busy and was trying to get well and forgotten about baby.
Happy 19th Birthday Seungri ! You're legal now, but please no Soju for you!
Belated though, it was yesterday (12th). baby is so young yet so famous and stuff. (:
babybabybaby, saranghae!
Girls at work noticed that I was super hardworking today. I washed the dishes when I never wanted to, I wiped the tables when it was only about 5pm, not closing yet. Even closing, I didn't wipe the tables with the sanitizer. whoopps. I wiped the front counter table, cleaned the dirty plates area and more. Maybe because it was baby's birthday, I had this extra UMP! to work and enjoy it. HEEHEH, thanks baby! and yes, I sang A LOT of korean songs at work today. a lot, i tell you.
I really can't get enough of baby.
Happy 19th Birthday Seungri ! You're legal now, but please no Soju for you!
Belated though, it was yesterday (12th). baby is so young yet so famous and stuff. (:
babybabybaby, saranghae!
Girls at work noticed that I was super hardworking today. I washed the dishes when I never wanted to, I wiped the tables when it was only about 5pm, not closing yet. Even closing, I didn't wipe the tables with the sanitizer. whoopps. I wiped the front counter table, cleaned the dirty plates area and more. Maybe because it was baby's birthday, I had this extra UMP! to work and enjoy it. HEEHEH, thanks baby! and yes, I sang A LOT of korean songs at work today. a lot, i tell you.
I really can't get enough of baby.
Friday, December 11, 2009
MY BABY LOOKING SO GOOD UH.♥♥♥♥
Those big bang words & his name was edited by me. Cool huh, it was a random font I chose and vwalla, it look like some photoshoot edits. hehehehe.
oooh baby, you're so fine.
IMMA VIP !
A concert this coming January, bigbang oppas?
HWAITING!! ¬ ♥
Oh, gave work a miss today. I don't know whats with my nose and my body.
bleeding mucus and aching like mad.
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Pampered myself with Faceshop products. Smiled ear to ear as I stepped in. Annyeong Haseyo! hahahaha. The saleslady sure know how to make us buy more than what we wanted. Seriously.. I walked in just to look around. Ended buying their products.
Okay way before that, bestfriend picked me up from work and we trained back to woodlands and lunch date at Delifrance. You have no idea how friggin full we were. Up to the brim, was on the verge of puking. Stomach hurts a lot. Because of that, desserts were wasted. Syg Molten chocolate cake with choco syrup ooozzzinnnggg out and my creme brulee. :(
Walked around and bought thissssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.
I don't own this. It's for someone (:
Meeting him later and I'm scared for no reason.
MONEY FLY FLY FLY SO FAST FAR TODAY.
OH ya, was at Cwp's kiddy palace at the counter choosing rappers for the present, I heard someone speaking a language I know. korean. YES, A KOREAN LADY AND HER CUTE TWO GIRLS. the younger on was nearer to me, so I waved my rapper at her and said hello. she got scared. Then I said, Annyeong haseyo. She peep back at me actually bowed and said annyeong haseyo back. Then she told her mom..
*some korean words*.... KOREAN!
mom's reaction was, nice.
I said annyeong and her mom asked her to say ' unnie annyeong!'
and she did. omg, i don't kknow why but i like it. haha.
No big bang, random korean kids also can la.
Walked away, still looking at me. hahaha.
*some korean words*.... KOREAN!
mom's reaction was, nice.
I said annyeong and her mom asked her to say ' unnie annyeong!'
and she did. omg, i don't kknow why but i like it. haha.
No big bang, random korean kids also can la.
Walked away, still looking at me. hahaha.
Wednesday, December 09, 2009
Yeah, Deli Gals (=
Bought this before heading home with Amira Izzaty after work. They seem friendly when taking my order after seeing how dissapointed I was when was told they're out of White Chocolate. Java Chip works for me.
No lunch date today. All busy :( from Alyssha to Nabil to Fiah to Don to Filiana to A.izzaty to idk who else.
So, headed back home and use the computer lor.
Don was being super drama mama, even more drama than any malay dramas you could think of. Okay fake la. Around 2 pm just now, both Don and myself were busy working. Suddenly, one customer who came back for receipt told me that there's a fire around the lift area at the new building. Was excited because I know we'll need to evacuate and a total whole of kaycuhness will rise. I loikeee. I saw Don already with his bag outside his workplace and the doors were closed. Kanchiong sia. He looked down and showed hand signals asking me to run cause got fire. funny, i tell you.
His shop was the first to react I think. Really funny how they closed and evacuated. ' Didn't you heard the announcement? Need to evacuate. Can go home :D ' I told jamin but Jamin didn't want to evacuate? She say, they all go home but you're not. you still working. -.- Drama also with don as I texted him goodbye as I will die because my Manager don't seem to allow us to evacuate. He said don't die and he will come and rescue me. No joke he came and asked me to evacuate. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA.
' eh, i really come want rescue you ehhh ' *laughs*
Hapilly eating the BREADED FISH PASTA (: while shoppers, Timezone people, Popular all evacuating. At last, they all came back. ahahahhahah. funny, very funny. After work, A. izzaty and I went to check it out and asked the security guard where's the fire, it was at the escalator. Reaction : WTF LIKE THIS ONLY?
Even the security guard laughed.
ok then go home lor.
Fun ah today. But four hours of work felt like me doing 12 hours shift -.-
OH, ive found a website filled with korean lessons. hehehe, so I don't think I will be sleeping now.
Azhar still have no idea what's Bogoshipoyo, Chuayo means. Instead, he made a Korean Cuisine with those words with the side dish, Baguette benyek & Mansion salad -.- INSIDE JOKE.
That's all. see ya.
baby's birthday is comingggggggggggggggg.
I'm still up. Bestfriend's chatting with me (:
Well what can I say, if you're a daily reader, you'll know what I like and dislike. If you know me well, you'll know that I dislike bringing up misunderstandings among friends or some lame fights over trivial matters. Although I'm always blogging about my love life, and so on but yeah, some things are just meant to said here and some are just meant to be kept to yourself and apparently, I can no longer tolerate.
Past is past, I know. But who wouldn't want to bring it up when her name is all over it ? okay, nevermind.
Little things, trivial matters that was going on with bestfriend and I was penned down in details. Negatively. Didn't know we were watched that closely. I just don't get it why in the past or maybe now still, people are watching, observing us so closely. To them, I'm too full of myself, thinks highly of myself when I'm as low as underground ( in their perspective ). Dear readers, tell me, tell me that you've never think highly of yourself. I'll applaud you for that because I can bet that in this world, not a single person who never thinks highly of themselves. Example, pointing out your best features in some random true or dare game is already thinking highly of yourself. So don't publicize the false 'fact' about me because I know myself better than ANYONE else. And, what are you doing publicizing about me?
Next, whatever I blog is also penned down and bad mouthed. Something with not much of a problem became such a controversial. I know what I'm saying in my blog because dear readers, I don't blog blindly and aimlessly. There's always the purpose.
Here is another one. I understand that when any of you are angry with someone over things, there's a tendency to bring in the rival's family. Example, I'll curse you and your family to hell ! Or the popular one in malay, mak kau branak kan anak sundal. Bpk kau tak ajar kau kepe. ( take note, I know some of this were used in some fights in school, not hinting on those, just using it as examples ) Yes, those. I mean, why bring family in when I'M the one you're fucked up about ? What wrong have my family done to you till you bring them in just for the sake of critisizing one person? Why? THIS, shows how unnurtured you are. Yes, play with my family, I'll throw it back to you.
Some times, things are way too hay wired when you poke your noses into other peoples live. In your perspective, you're doing it because I was poking my nose into your life. So, in this kind of situation, get facts right before showing your anger and dislikes. Like I said, misunderstanding and trivial matters you publicize as your comments, will be controversial.
Everyone has their best features, worst features and so on. Models are known for their 'package'. But believe me, even them, they do not have the package. God doesn't create human beings with a full package and complete. If not, what for be a human being when everything's good ? Yes, I'm talking about God since you talked about it too. Nothing wrong, My Allah, your Allah. Don't bring Him either, saying how I being such a unfilial human being doing things pretty on the outside and a total opposite in the inside. It's his creation. Let us just accept whatever he has created. This is general knowledge, even the most hardcore, no straight path in life people knows that. So I'm puzzled that you don't seem to know that.
Try to compile all of it, it forms a story book of 400 pages.
Well thanks, there you go, PART TWO of the book (:
I'm just saying this so that if there's anyone who wants to really bad mouth would think twice. I hope it helps.
Well what can I say, if you're a daily reader, you'll know what I like and dislike. If you know me well, you'll know that I dislike bringing up misunderstandings among friends or some lame fights over trivial matters. Although I'm always blogging about my love life, and so on but yeah, some things are just meant to said here and some are just meant to be kept to yourself and apparently, I can no longer tolerate.
Past is past, I know. But who wouldn't want to bring it up when her name is all over it ? okay, nevermind.
Little things, trivial matters that was going on with bestfriend and I was penned down in details. Negatively. Didn't know we were watched that closely. I just don't get it why in the past or maybe now still, people are watching, observing us so closely. To them, I'm too full of myself, thinks highly of myself when I'm as low as underground ( in their perspective ). Dear readers, tell me, tell me that you've never think highly of yourself. I'll applaud you for that because I can bet that in this world, not a single person who never thinks highly of themselves. Example, pointing out your best features in some random true or dare game is already thinking highly of yourself. So don't publicize the false 'fact' about me because I know myself better than ANYONE else. And, what are you doing publicizing about me?
Next, whatever I blog is also penned down and bad mouthed. Something with not much of a problem became such a controversial. I know what I'm saying in my blog because dear readers, I don't blog blindly and aimlessly. There's always the purpose.
Here is another one. I understand that when any of you are angry with someone over things, there's a tendency to bring in the rival's family. Example, I'll curse you and your family to hell ! Or the popular one in malay, mak kau branak kan anak sundal. Bpk kau tak ajar kau kepe. ( take note, I know some of this were used in some fights in school, not hinting on those, just using it as examples ) Yes, those. I mean, why bring family in when I'M the one you're fucked up about ? What wrong have my family done to you till you bring them in just for the sake of critisizing one person? Why? THIS, shows how unnurtured you are. Yes, play with my family, I'll throw it back to you.
Some times, things are way too hay wired when you poke your noses into other peoples live. In your perspective, you're doing it because I was poking my nose into your life. So, in this kind of situation, get facts right before showing your anger and dislikes. Like I said, misunderstanding and trivial matters you publicize as your comments, will be controversial.
Everyone has their best features, worst features and so on. Models are known for their 'package'. But believe me, even them, they do not have the package. God doesn't create human beings with a full package and complete. If not, what for be a human being when everything's good ? Yes, I'm talking about God since you talked about it too. Nothing wrong, My Allah, your Allah. Don't bring Him either, saying how I being such a unfilial human being doing things pretty on the outside and a total opposite in the inside. It's his creation. Let us just accept whatever he has created. This is general knowledge, even the most hardcore, no straight path in life people knows that. So I'm puzzled that you don't seem to know that.
Try to compile all of it, it forms a story book of 400 pages.
Well thanks, there you go, PART TWO of the book (:
I'm just saying this so that if there's anyone who wants to really bad mouth would think twice. I hope it helps.
Yeah, that night was awesome despite.. ah yana knows. ahah !
So up there, there's Amira Abdullah, myself, Filiana, Azhar, kak noor, Uncle ben (lol) Faris and baha.
If only amirah izzaty tagged along.
There's alot of pictures actually. But most of it is pictures of the mentels. hahahahha. So, no need to upload.
Just got back from work about oen hour ago. Met Don awhile and passed him some food.
Dad: your friend walked here?
Me: no la, bicycle.
Dad: *look out of the gate and saw don cycling across the street*, that one? BOY?
Me: uh, yes.
He's gonna tell mom tmr I tell you. Aiyo.
IVE GOT TO MEET UP WITH BESTFRIED AND SLEEP WITH HER CAUSE I'VE MISSED OUT A WHOLE LOT OF NEWS, STORIES, GOSSIP, LAUGHTERS AND SADNESS WITH HER.
saranghaeyo!
Saturday, December 05, 2009
Just got back home awhile ago. Went Simpang Bedok with work mates and kak Noor for supperzxz. It was late, parents and sis nagged but man, I had fun. We reached our destination in a Farmland Lorry. We sat inside the fridge (?) which was like uhm, 0 degrees? Yeaaaaah. So I was like, no need go korea alrd, sit inside here and enjoy the smokey thingy coming out from our mouth as we talk, and play some korean music and yeah, it feels like we're at Korea.
Despite feeling lweknedmfnosifslknfdsdfftaikerwrewfndsfnsd x 1000 about something, I enjoyed the whole supper thing. Last minute but awesome. The ride back home was the best. Played murderer and yeah, it was fun. haha.
Pictures sooon I think?
And i really think that there's something growing in my eyes, fuck shit it's red and watery.
dah nak mati.
and thanks filiana for being such a kickass friend. just now was awesome, you know I know eh (:
Despite feeling lweknedmfnosifslknfdsdfftaikerwrewfndsfnsd x 1000 about something, I enjoyed the whole supper thing. Last minute but awesome. The ride back home was the best. Played murderer and yeah, it was fun. haha.
Pictures sooon I think?
And i really think that there's something growing in my eyes, fuck shit it's red and watery.
dah nak mati.
and thanks filiana for being such a kickass friend. just now was awesome, you know I know eh (:
Wednesday, December 02, 2009
OH MY BABY !
SEUNGRI AH ! WHY MUST YOU BE SO AMAZING ? SO SEXY, SO HOT.
STRONG BABY IS BACK, BABY !!!!!!!!!!!
*FAINTS.
BABY'S TURNING 20/21 REAL SOOON YEAH !
SARANGHAEYO!
THERE'S A SINGAPORE MEET THIS DECEMBER. I WANNA GO BUT WILL I BE WORKING?!!??!?!??! I WANNA WIN THOSE BIG BANG PRIZES, DIRECTLY FROM KOREA.
OH MYYYYYYY. Fiah, there's this 2pm jaebom project thingy ya knoww.
**
Work has been very tiring. But someone consistently made my every day. Well, not everyday but most of the days. haha ^^ come back from the chalet faster okay so that I'll get to see you around & go home with you (:
So work.. yeah, pay's coming in but Im pretty sure it won't be a lot since it's only 20 day pay since I started working on the 5th. aiya.
Don't really look forward to go to work but I once I thought of my kickass colleagues, I couldn't wait any longer to reach Delifrance. So yesterday was fun despite all tensed up as Jamin was in charge. Had dinner at Macdonald since Amira Izzaty didn't had her break. Lots of laughters till we realised it's already midnight. 0.0
I've got a lot to blog about life, but Seungri is the only thing/person that is in my mind and totally occupies it. I can't even blog properly. So yeah, I'll end it here.
SEUNGRI AH ! WHY MUST YOU BE SO AMAZING ? SO SEXY, SO HOT.
STRONG BABY IS BACK, BABY !!!!!!!!!!!
*FAINTS.
BABY'S TURNING 20/21 REAL SOOON YEAH !
SARANGHAEYO!
THERE'S A SINGAPORE MEET THIS DECEMBER. I WANNA GO BUT WILL I BE WORKING?!!??!?!??! I WANNA WIN THOSE BIG BANG PRIZES, DIRECTLY FROM KOREA.
OH MYYYYYYY. Fiah, there's this 2pm jaebom project thingy ya knoww.
**
Work has been very tiring. But someone consistently made my every day. Well, not everyday but most of the days. haha ^^ come back from the chalet faster okay so that I'll get to see you around & go home with you (:
So work.. yeah, pay's coming in but Im pretty sure it won't be a lot since it's only 20 day pay since I started working on the 5th. aiya.
Don't really look forward to go to work but I once I thought of my kickass colleagues, I couldn't wait any longer to reach Delifrance. So yesterday was fun despite all tensed up as Jamin was in charge. Had dinner at Macdonald since Amira Izzaty didn't had her break. Lots of laughters till we realised it's already midnight. 0.0
I've got a lot to blog about life, but Seungri is the only thing/person that is in my mind and totally occupies it. I can't even blog properly. So yeah, I'll end it here.